Fili’s world

I've had a bad weekend and this final few hours have earned this weekend the title of "Worst weekend-Q3/2006".

All I really wanted was to host a few small communities about subjects I relate to, but lately it has turned from a small hobby experiment into a time consuming maintenance task with various small issues I keep getting in my email box every morning.

I've stepped into the community-web field with very little knowledge and experience, taking baby steps and learning as I go along, thinking that it would be o'right.

Today, with a tiny mistake I'm still confused about, I've managed to screw up a site. upset my hosting company and get my account suspended. My host company, which hates my guts now, has started receiving angry phone calls from their costumers about their sites being down and all clues lead to one of my community sites. I've spent the last couple of hours having the most unbelievable exchange of emails where I was refused help to restore the database till I eventually gave up and just told them to delete it. I really wanted to post the whole live-chat and email exchange here, so you could have a tiny taste of the frustration, but I have a feeling I might regret that later on. I hope all the community users will understand if I won't be touching those for a while.

But it's not only that, ofcourse it's not. If it was only that I wouldn't have really cared. There's much more. Wanting to help a good friend I've gotten myself involved in an assignment that is way over my head and that I now feel uncomfortable with. I came back from the UK to a job that I don't really like - away from someone I want to be with, and all the directions that I've sought to explore ever since I came back from Asia have reached a dead-end.

I need to go back to the basics, get rid of all the noise and focus on what makes me happy. I hope things will brighten up a bit…